Official Diagnosis

So I’ve talked about my depression and anxiety a little on this site, but it is hard to talk about sometimes because mental illness is still seen as somewhat taboo. Due to some FMLA paperwork I submitted for my job, I found out that my official diagnosis had changed from Major Depressive Disorder to Bipolar 2.

This might not seem like a big deal to some of you, but it sort of devastated me. Bipolar 2 is

A less severe type of bipolar disorder characterized by depressive and hypomanic episodes.

It is a lifelong illness and does not have a cure only treatment. My aunt is bipolar, so it runs in my family, but seeing those words on paper broke my heart. It was as if seeing my future in front of me but something blocked the path.

I know that it does not decide who I am, but I feel that I am traveling through this life with a monkey on my back. That, with meds and therapy, I can keep the monkey where belongs give me a little bit of hope, but I am still unsure of how I feel about it. I guess that makes the metaphor work. Whatever.

Comment Starters
1. How did you react when you received a diagnosis you didn’t want to acknowledge?
2. Tell me of your own experiences of dealing with mental illness.

Bookends

This tweet(this one here) just made me realize this is my life. I’m not the only one with this struggle. I have tried for years to get the room on my bookshelf to out pictures or bookends or knick knacks on my bookshelves without covering up the books, but I can barely fit all of my books on it without other crap crowding the shelves. Freaking Pinterest telling me I can make beautiful things into bookends, but then what do I do with the GD bookends.

Sorry.  Rant over.

Comment Questions:
1. Do you feel this way?
2. Are you one of those people that have bookends? If so, how?!?!?!

NaNoWriMo and Tea

This month is National Novel Writing Month. I am participating; therefore, the blog will be partly abandoned until writing can commence on all things not NANOWRIMO. I will be drinking lots of tea this month to keep me fueled for writing, so expect several tea reviews in December. Until then, wish me luck. Happy Fall! Happy NaNo!

  1. Do you participate?
  2. Do you think there is any point to NaNoWriMo?
  3. What motivates you to write?